confused

this really blows me when a guy claims they want a good girl, but constantly go after the complete opposite. I know i hold myself up with respect, so when a guy wants to talk to me, they are intrigued at first. After a few days they want me to sleep with them and if i would've, i would be a slut. our generation -___-

sticky situations

i find myself in double binds all the time. if i'm interested in someone, i find myself really wanting to spend time with them, but i dont want to spend time with them too early because i dont want them to think im fast. if i dont spend enough time, they lose interest. I dont spend time when they want to, i'm a tease. I feel l'm in a triple bind :o

rap songs

i love music to the fullest. no matter what message the song delivers, i will sing every word. its not until i took this women studies class that i realized how degrading these songs are. i feel ashamed :/

hollywood?

so i was walking to the store to pick up my food, and I see a group of guys on the corner. when this happens I do not even make contact. because I ignored them i got called "hollywood" one guy said , "this is philly, not hollywood. so dont act like that!" im not trying to act famous, i just want to be left alone.

sucker for love

i have a friend where literally everytime she gets a boyfriend, she is MIA. I think every girl has a friend like this. We wouldnt here from her in days, sometimes 2 weeks. When we did finally hear from her, it was only because he was busy, which made us back up. Of course she wouldnt make us back up everytime they had a problem, she knew exactly who to come to. Then she gets mad when we call her out on it because she claims it isnt true. She is the type to fall too fast and she end up getting hurt everytime. She has insecurities herself, so she spends a lot of time with them to keep them interested.

first boyfriend

i remember my first little boyfriend in middle school. I automatically thought we would just get married just because I did not know not a thing about relationships. Well we ended up breaking up and he got into a relationship with another girl. I thought the girl was gorgeous, so I became very insecure. Because I went to catholic school and wore a specific uniform, I used to throw on my best outfits on dress down day. I went through a phase where I was a little fresh, lol but only when it came to clothing. They were so tight and since I had big breast as a child, my shirts were always like v neck. I never got him back, but I did get his attention lol.

childhood tv

when i was younger, i used to always dream of being as pretty as the girls on tv. I remember watching "Sister Sister" and just saying how beautiful they were. Everytime I seen them where something I liked or if they had their hair a certain way that I adored, I would always "I want that when I get older." Almost as if I did not think I was pretty enough, sad :/

my dad's foolishness

Me and my mom were arguing as usual one afternoon. Right after we were done, my dad calls my name. I respond what. He then says to me "Don't what me, its me you talking to." As if he was saying its one thing for me to talk to my mom like that, thats just my mom. But i shouldnt talk to him like that. Controlling much?

my rough morning

I was on my way to the bus stop one morning looking completely rough. I had a mean expression on my face, hair was not done, and no make up on. This guy was trying to hit on me, disregarding how much of a mess I looked. Not that I wasn't flattered that he was still trying to talk to me, but that just proved that some guys will literally talk to any girl with a heartbeat. Reason being, its so easy for some guys to get certain girls no matter what they look like. Then he got so mad that I was not interested, so he said "Well your ugly anyway." thanks -____-

saturday night at my job

So I recently just became a customer service rep at my job. My job now is not only a cashier, but I do returns, exchanges, lottery, make keys, and answer phones. Anyway, we had 4 cashiers that night and they were all guys. This one customer came to the service desk and said "can I checkout here?" I'm like sure but its 4 registers open over there. Hes like yeah I know, but I dont feel comfortable. I said to him why not, and he said because its too many guys over there. He even suggested to talk to a manager just because it was only male cashiers that night. The worst thing about it was he was married. Therefore why are you even worried if its no female cashiers? I was so pissed ..